De-bunking my Ego.

I've been 15yrs searching intently for understanding of humanity and its relationship with god and life. Time after time my realities were smashed through others' realities' dawning in my awareness. I saw others perspectives and perceptions and I saw my own. I discovered many characteristics within me that I had not been consciously aware of.

This is what I perceived as my 'ego'. Not good, not bad but the source of it was from my perceptions of how life was. When it seemed things were not how it 'was' then 'ego' would take over. I would get caught up in whatever it was and never took time to step back and observe. I was fully engaged and a sucker for a cause. That was one aspect of my 'ego' that dissipated with awareness of it.

As each one dawned in my awareness,I realized that all these aspects of 'ego' were sourced from the outside in. That I was taking on far too much that wasn't even mine to take, and in the end it had broken me. I was a martyr too. :lol: Phew! It all feels like it was a dream or more of a nightmare today. Thank god it's over. You know I might even be sincere for the first time in thanking god. :blush:

The problem I have with this is that I have no identity. The good thing is that in naming and claiming my 'ego's persona' I am free to be myself and I guess that is why I am here. To see who I have become.

Ego is a topic that never ends I am afraid. My perspective is one that few will approve of, as I am in between. I am not a fan of a spirituality that results in a less involved and active egoic life, as the egoic life has some quality, such as energy, goal orientation, commitment, and ambition.

If we can adjust to be what we need to be as we discover who we are and what we need to adjust, then we would have no ego. Most will say that I am talking about positive verses negative ego, but I think I am actually showing that positive ego is not ego until it becomes negative. So we have to identify all that affects ego.

I say it is science...the electric energy that is gravtity and electricity...and ego. It is simply the equation that includes the interjection of humanity into a balanced scientific equation...and we make it unbalanced. If we have a manner to correctly enter and leave this world we have balanced the equation, then no ego.

Instead of ego, we will have love. Imagine having a button on the back of your left hand that produces love. That is our future. And, if we can scientifically identify the exact difference between male and female as it exists in our ego, without it being hormonal...but the results of hormonal, we may have solved a problem that may be one of the top 3 goals for humanity.

Wade

soffty wrote: Ego is a topic that never ends I am afraid. My perspective is one that few will approve of, as I am in between. I am not a fan of a spirituality that results in a less involved and active egoic life, as the egoic life has some quality, such as energy, goal orientation, commitment, and ambition.

De-bunking ego doesn't have to mean dropping it completely. What it means to me is dropping those aspects that don't serve your well-being (personally) and truly knowing yourself.

If we can adjust to be what we need to be as we discover who we are and what we need to adjust, then we would have no ego. Most will say that I am talking about positive verses negative ego, but I think I am actually showing that positive ego is not ego until it becomes negative. So we have to identify all that affects ego.

I know what you mean but in my case I found some positive aspects of ego that were actually harming me e.g. the 'saviour'.

I say it is science...the electric energy that is gravtity and electricity...and ego. It is simply the equation that includes the interjection of humanity into a balanced scientific equation...and we make it unbalanced. If we have a manner to correctly enter and leave this world we have balanced the equation, then no ego.

Instead of ego, we will have love. Imagine having a button on the back of your left hand that produces love. That is our future. And, if we can scientifically identify the exact difference between male and female as it exists in our ego, without it being hormonal...but the results of hormonal, we may have solved a problem that may be one of the top 3 goals for humanity.

Wade

Are we females and males so different on the inside?

Are we females and males so different on the inside?

Actually, I have never found any similarities between male and female on the inside. Of course, I am using myself as the male portion. The women in my life would probably say that the reason is all my fault.

Any topic comparing men and women is a good one in my opinion. I think there may be a logistics problem when anyone reincarnates into the opposite sex.

I have always been attracted to women who were independently inclined. I lost respect with the women in my life who didn't have their own identity. Many women look for men to give them a life.

I have always had difficulty showing affection. I was taught to not have feelings. Even though I am extremely honest and giving, responsible and forthright, I have faults that are hard to overcome.

Women, to me, have always been grounded so very well. In touch with their feelings and easy to be around. Still, I have never found a woman who could communicate. I am so open, while they want to keep secret.

I love women.

Wade

I've been 15yrs searching intently for understanding of humanity and its relationship with god and life. Time after time my realities were smashed through others' realities' dawning in my awareness. I saw others perspectives and perceptions and I saw my own. I discovered many characteristics within me that I had not been consciously aware of.

This is what I perceived as my 'ego'. Not good, not bad but the source of it was from my perceptions of how life was. When it seemed things were not how it 'was' then 'ego' would take over. I would get caught up in whatever it was and never took time to step back and observe. I was fully engaged and a sucker for a cause. That was one aspect of my 'ego' that dissipated with awareness of it.

I would discover that I felt differently now than I did before. My ego was making me interpret a situation or another's opinion and it was flawed. I think it is easy to not have this problem when we sit back and relax and watch others work, but when we are the driving force behind productivity we are inclined to make mistakes. I have always been active and working toward a goal or planning my next goal. had I just sat in a chair and relaxed, I would have made few mistakes, but then I would have been like all the people around me and do little or nothing.

I am not very good at this posting format.

Wade

soffty wrote:

Are we females and males so different on the inside?

Actually, I have never found any similarities between male and female on the inside. Of course, I am using myself as the male portion. The women in my life would probably say that the reason is all my fault.

Any topic comparing men and women is a good one in my opinion. I think there may be a logistics problem when anyone reincarnates into the opposite sex.

I have always been attracted to women who were independently inclined. I lost respect with the women in my life who didn't have their own identity. Many women look for men to give them a life.

I have always had difficulty showing affection. I was taught to not have feelings. Even though I am extremely honest and giving, responsible and forthright, I have faults that are hard to overcome.

Women, to me, have always been grounded so very well. In touch with their feelings and easy to be around. Still, I have never found a woman who could communicate. I am so open, while they want to keep secret.

I love women.

Wade

Don't we have the same emotions? I would say I am open and honest. Gets me into no end of trouble. :lol:

You know lots of men want their wives to live in their worlds where they have control. I guess this is true of many partnerships.

I don't suppose it's unusual but you do seem to be putting us in boxes. We may have similarities but we are each unique.