F r e e d o m

The culmination of my trip will be next week and my decision is, I think, to walk up to the hospital I escaped from and commit myself. I will try to write a story of my adventures this last week as being homeless...this weekend.

I hit a home run yesterday when I went to the 4 main shops in this close area and secured all of them as customers and immediately got two jobs for today.

The owner asked me to meet him there at 6AM and put in a full day. I workd for him earlier this year for maybe 3 months. He showed up at 6:45, showed me the seats I was to recover, and then left.

He did not want to be around when i started bitching. Maybe even changed his mind about me and hoped I would not show up.

My job today...to fabricate seat covers for a brand new Dodge Charger, converting from cloth to vinly. The customer came in and wanted to see if his car was done...the Charger that was getting a leather upgrade.

Yes, he knew I was going to bitch. I cut out much of the pieces and then waited for him to return...no go.

He did not return...he sent his office girl in at 9AM and i explained why I was leaving. I will not play a part in screwing this guy out of his leather. And as we all know, I am the bad guy here.

Story of my life. Have the balls to be a patriot and follow orders. You say no...be prepared to live in an asylum.

Follow the corporate instructions and be a good puppet. Excuses are so tasty. YUm, the American dream.

I packed up my tools and left...effectively losing any chance of maintaining an opportunity to work within the black community of Arlington. I was not welcome anyway, as a white man. But the problem is, I am on their side. AS a white man, my job is to not only lie, but make the commitment to outlie and win.

Out lie and win...USA.

Wade

MistyW wrote: I hope everyone can have the same outlook as you. Often we find that we cannot see outside of our small, daily rhythm of work and home. But what we need to realize is that we are free, and it's just your perception and outlook on life that makes you free.

I am glad you said that, this is very true. Often when a person is suffering internally it is hard to pin down a solid reason why. Maybe there are situations in your life that are beyond your control, maybe you haven't been able to process some emotional trauma. There are such a large number of reasons why we can be suffering internally.

So it is very easy to point fingers, and say that " My unhappiness is being caused by an external force " , when in reality, it is only your perception which causes unhappiness.

It's been said that even some Jews in concentration camps, although worked hard, tortured, and killed, did not suffer, because they did not know hate. Hate was in their captors, but was not a part of them, so they did not feel it. It is said that "If you spot it, you got it" , meaning that if you see someone else and judge them, that you are recognizing a part of yourself that you "hate" ( such a strong word)


One of the elements of peace, is that it is effortless, and the same goes for love and kindness. Peace simply happens by not interfering and allowing peace to happen, this is true, but also requires faith. The only thing that takes effort, and makes us suffer are violence, hate, and evil.

Do you understand Wade?

Hi guys. Please do not let me convince you that I need so much help since I am quite strange, and i provoke so much. I have much to tell, but that will have to wait until I have a better situation to write this weekend.

I just had the opportunity to share the best Thanksgiving of my last ten years. I also met a black man at the fake leather job site who said i was sent by God, as we are two of a kind...intensely similar...like a mirror image.

I was given several chances to give in and compromise my mission in life to be me. I ended up doing my best....scartch that...second best work of my life. To be willing to do the walk rather than talk, and throw it all away so I can be humbly conquered by society...but all by choice...is the real Wade that people are sooo afraid of.

I chose to be homeless and go on a quest, and I choose to go to the hospital and relive my opportunity to share and give, and all the while this world wants me to be put away...and why?

Because I give the gift of fear and provide a shock treatment that requires a self denying response that is not a conscious thought, but a defense mechanism. I can do that exact thing as I have all my life just by a performance level that initiates a defensive response to protect ego.

The top secrets of our government are maintained through a generational system. I was groomed as the replacement for my dad. I am the one who said no and the one who walked up to the body guards of the walking statue. These things will make me insane to the world, as well as my allow my masters to do with me as they wish...yet angels stopped them.

Yes, I know the assumptions and I know the obvious. And, there are the five or six who know me for who I am, and they come to my side anytine I am around...while those who do not know me are afraid of something they have never seen before.

I am beyond strange, and I am just barely touching the real topic. When this is over it will be a story that makes sense to some of the doubters. It is all about a confidence to do they unbelievable and accomplish the impossible.

Such a vague description of nonsense and baloney. We make the truth. It is not what we are told. There is a ground beneath our feet. It is waiting for the moment we become that ground. Insanity is just a word.

I have to go...the writing will begin soon. I wasn't going to write my story, but I was inspired by a homeless man who rejected friendship because the only poeple who care about him are perverts. I am not going to let that stand as it is.

Like I said...today was a miracle, as was yesterday. It takes ingredients to have a recipe. These had a cost...show me anyoine who will pay that cost.

Wade

It's great that you are getting help.

It's very obvious that you aren't reading any of the posts before you reply to them.

I would say that if I could say one thing, even though you might not read it.

If you want people to listen to you, then you have to listen to other people...

Anyway, good luck on your journey

I actually try to read them, but I am doing it without internet access. In being homeless, I have to avoid going to jail every day and night...just by where i park. I have to be creative to see the posts, and I may even be reading the wrong post.

I had planned on not going online, but at one point I decided to not plan anything and let it happen. That was when I started having success. The last 4 days, I have had a minor miracle happen each day...in finding people or having them find me...who have either read my books are are mirror images of me.

I had a great thanksgiving and it was all given to me through anunexpected invitation.

I can go to jail at any moment of any day. I just let it play out. Our society is nothing like we pretend it to be. Almost everyone I know or encounter thinks I belong in an institution. Now you too. What should we call it when our entire society is OWNED by corporation/government and it is the population who defends that fact?

There is a private TV network not controlled by liars...LINK TV. People just do not want the truth to own them. They want to have the right to their ego and their dessert, and their opinion, and their addiction and lust. And at the expense of impoverished minorities.

If you look at a Hispanic family it is more than likely a two-parented one. Look at a typical American family and is is broken beyond repair...even rich ones. Hardly ever a two-parent family.

This selfish population absolutely will not own who they are. Money rules the people, the people (as a whole) are a machinerun by the secret soceities so well that they can even operate in plain sight and not be held accountable, and if anyone speaks up, he/she is put away, and if he/she is important, or powerful, or very vocal...DEAD!

Who here is willing to stand up for truth? It comes at a cost. It is so much easier to hate me.

Wade

Taking the easy way out, keeping our mouths shut, wearing blinders, overeating and gaining 200 pounds and blaming it on somthing other than us, sitting in a chair all day and bitching about others, smoking and eating is what we do, when we are not hating others....

I am just happy if I get a fatal error and a post goes up